I’ve not been following the arbitrary rules.
Instead of taking a shower immediately upon getting home, I sewed/read for a while (sorely needed sewing). Then when I went to the bathroom I thought, “as long as I’m here I might as well shower.”
I’ve been spending less time online and, yes, more of it than should has been after 11 pm. But I’ve been doing more things offline.
I think perhaps what I need most (that I get a kick in the butt towards doing from UfYH) is a “while I’m here I might as well X” mindset: as long as I’m in the dining room, I might as well sew, as long as I’m in the bathroom I might as well shower, as long as I’m off the computer I might as well go haring off to the library.
And now the rules say I need to turn off my computer. So uh I guess I’ll do that
of course! you are inspiring me :)
also this is where I say “I was completely away from my computer until now, so I’m signing on *after* eleven to tell you that I’m shutting my computer down and am going to stay up super-late reading, which I will count as improvement because it doesn’t come with the sense of ‘oh god i can’t stop’”
also I fell down on it yesterday ._. got back on after my shower for “just four minutes i swear” (it was 10:56) but then I got to video chat with my boyfriend, which I am declaring doesn’t count, because he’s two hours earlier than me so can mostly only talk late at night
but I am spending less time online than i was, tho i’m not sure if it’s a coincidence or not
Today was the day of “oh my god I am exhausted let us take all the naps”. But I made my bed. I bought important things. I made lunch for tomorrow (which I haven’t done in a long time). I made dinner.
I did not shower, on the grounds that I got home at 1:30 pm and was fucking exhausted >.> but I am going to go do it nowww and then I will turn off the internets and read for an online class and hopefully sleep at a reasonable time.
also hey, mia-amore, thanks for the follow! :)
Calling out to Team UFYH
Hi there. I have a problem. Maybe Team UFYH can help?
Last night I showered. The last time I showered before that was probably over a week ago. I just can’t seem to shower regularly. Why? Well, I can’t shower in the morning because I don’t wake up in time to do more than eat before going to work/class.
Why can’t I wake up earlier? Because I stay up late on the internet forever - incidentally, this is the reason I have trouble showering at night regularly, too. By the time I drag myself off the computer, it’s way too late to shower. (I’m a little afraid of the dark, even if it’s safely outside the window.)
I try to make myself get off the computer earlier, but. When I’m using something like Strict Pomodoro, I stop restarting the work timer more often than not. If I tried to install internet-use-policing software, I suspect I would just turn it off once my internet WANT became stronger than my desire to be virtuous and not act addictively towards the internet.
Plus, I have a completion problem: if I open my tumblr dash, you better believe I’m reading the whole damn thing. This is what makes me stay on the internet for three hours longer than I’d meant to, usually - I started this thing and now I must finish it, unless I get so sick of it I just close the tab without dealing with it.
I have trouble following the rules I set for myself, probably because they’re a little all-or-nothing. I can’t do just a little of getting off the internet. I can’t do just a little of tumblr because then I’d miss stuff and never see it again. Even though I don’t really get much of value from Tumblr.
I don’t know. I have infinite excuses, and almost as infinite reasons, and am no closer to a solution than before.